Saturday, September 21, 2013

A pleasure to meet you Fiona

I thought it was scientifically impossible to love two people more, until they became three, and before I knew it I was being introduced to their baby girl; as if God reached into my heart and made it exponentially bigger to fit each and every one of her red hairs and one month old tears to be rocked to sleep against her mothers chest, inside.

In 5 days they leave for Edinburgh; and to borrow the words of Zach himself, its rough that I don't know when I'll see you next. So I'll pray god willing and godspeed to you three; I hope soon we'll make four and tea in your wood floored Scottish living room.


It was a pleasure to meet you Fiona. You have the best parents a baby could ask for. Someday you'll know that; and I hope I can tell you about the time your mom called me, and said, "I just couldn't keep it inside Mike;" and the night your pops couldn't sleep, and in the 2 am Florida darkness of our living room, said he couldn't leave town without her knowing he was a changed man. 

You are the daughter of a great love story, best one I know. 

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

"look at the cathedrals"



“you know what we need right now Mikey? 
a joint.” 
he said it naturally, 
as if it were less his thought, and 
more his reaction, 
like he meant it; 
meant it louder than the honking of the passing street busses; 
and louder than the laughter of school girls 
impressing school boys. 

i’d just finished telling him why 
i needed to turn down his offer to lunch, 
my stomach, 
had been bothering me all weekend, 
and it were no different 
as we pulled into the parking lot near the largest 
outdoor shopping mall in san salvador; 
my bus stop;
i just wanted to get back to the farm and sleep. 

“god put the treasure in the soil, 
you just remember that,” 
and i would, 
i told him so, 
truth was i wished i did smoke weed, 
just so i wouldn’t have to tell him no 
when he cared so deeply, 
but i try to follow the laws i can, 

“they don’t know what people really need Mikey, 
they ban this here, god-given thing, 
meanwhile capitalism is a free market;
and the devil struts about, 
shouting: look at the cathedrals!
just look at 'em Mikey, 
all around us
pointing to heaven like middle fingers. 
jesus christ, 
at least we have the cigars, 
grab the cigars Mikey, 
really, 
i bought them in Guatemala.” 

and we did have cigars, 
old cigars 
dried out from a glove box 
and summer,
but the difference didn’t phase me, 
it seldom does, 
our gap of forty years
bridged by sunday sun and smoke billows;
i rested my arm on the downed window 
and forgot about my stomach, 
i wouldn't forget the day. 

a year later Eddy Brooks, 
you’re still a good man in my book. 

Friday, September 6, 2013

when angels take wings - a cover



by Alexander Alan Kaiser

the lump in my throat won't go away 
so i just whisper 
the name upon the stone 
that marks the fresh turned georgia clay 
like a flower on a hill 
she bloomed in beauty for a season 
the fragrance of her life 
like sweet perfume lingers on 

when angels take wings 
and fly away 
makes you lonely makes you blue 
makes you want to fly away too 
i know my babe 
is in heaven with jesus 
children sing 
children play 
life goes on it'll be ok 
still nothing i do feels right today 
when angels take wings 

she was my sweetheart
since we met in junior high school 
kept my promise to her daddy 
i'd respect his little girl 
like a sun that sets 
goes out of sight 
leaves a red glow hanging up against the night 
how to say goodbye 
to one you planned to love forever 

she was the one to paint a rainbow after the storm 
her love was the fire that kept me warm 
she was like heaven on earth in my heart in my home 
who would have thought 
she'd fly away so soon