were i a hummingbird

were i a hummingbird 

i’d hover,

over earth until 

guilty verdicts 

reverberated 

from the laws of gravity.  

were i a hummingbird 

i’d make home 

of her garden, 

and of her olive skin 

which steeps in the green and gold 

of the afternoon 

and iridescence 

percolating through the branches. 

were i a hummingbird 

i’d live swiftly, 

so swiftly she did hear my colors 

writing songs through her lantana. 

were i a hummingbird 

i'd flicker,

into spring and through every direction of her wildest dreams,

like the interweaving lines on her palms

and out from each one of her fingertips. 

were i a hummingbird 

i’d return, 

today, and every today after.

were i a hummingbird 

i'd hope she were hearing,

i'd hope she were seeing

i’d hope she were smiling,

i'd hope that she were nearing

i'd hope she were

were i a hummingbird,

(and she would be).

one way ticket

all my roads 

feel like a one way 

ticket to a cliffs edge. 

in all of my dreams i 

jump before look

ing to the bottom of the canyon 

and a miniature trampoline

hoping to bounce my way 

to the other 

end of these train tracks 

i still wait 

for your ear to press a

gainst. i still keep 

mine held tightly to the steel. i 

will always be 

at your other end i am 

always at your finish line. 

come barrel

ing around my corners 

please come train 

wreck me you know 

i spent every last pen

ny on our one way 

ticket to catastrophe   

but goddam you 

have never made me happi

er to have been so foolish. 

your hair is long

your hair is long 

again like it was 

yesterday has it been 

so long since i re

member what the soft

ness of your 

hands feel like have they 

calloused to my touch? 

in your silence i have count

ed all the ways to say i love 

you and soon 

i reach the walls 

of every i still do

standing be

tween us and you.

do you still 

keep the an

swers to all 

my favorite questions? 

no one can find 

them any 
where only silence i keep count

ing all the ways to say i love

you your hair is long 

again like it was yesterday 

arguably they're our pages

we hold hands 

when we ar

gue. i want to 

pull my hair out 

and (though I have

n't quite learned how to)

kiss you simultaneously. 

we are endless

ly on different pages,

but argu

ably they

're our pages. 

some say 

we could

n't be more opposite, 

some say opposite

s attract, 

i say let 

me love you 

(once 

and for al

ways). i say let

's prove 

just how beautiful

it is 

to have so lit

tle in common. 

to count to i love you

how many mornings

how many nights

how many suns 

how many moons  

to count to love you 

one two three we 

all i do is smile 

four five six i’m 

still holding my breath 

seven eight nine take 

every piece of time 

to make it to all ten 

reasons our fingers 

keep finding their way back to one -

anothers 

how little 

how much 

how long 

how soon 

does it roll on like the waves 

is it defined like the shore 

is it higher than the sky 

does it outnumber the stars 

how close   

how beyond  

how gentle  

how strong 

can you find it in her eyes

does it fit within both hands

is it further than always  

is it nearer than now 

how many letters  

how many words

how many shouted

how many whispered 

to count to i love you

The only one I want to know